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 5 weeks
 

The countdown begins! I am now in week 33 of my pregnancy and since I will be induced at 38 weeks, that leaves me with 5 weeks left! I am so excited to meet baby Jake but more so nervous about how I will manage 3 kids. SPeaking of which, just 2 leave me with very limited time to the internet and time for blogging!

as I leave I will add Alaina had her open house today. Can't believe my baby is going to Kindergarten. I will be a nervous wreck all weekend worrying about her first day on Monday. I have gotten teared up so many times. Today I almost embarassed myself several times.

Her teachers are really nice and she loves her classroom. ah I gotta go.

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 I breathe therefore I wheeze
 

Wheezing is no fun. Especially when the wheezer is 6 months pregnant. I have had this horrible cough for 3 weeks and finally went to an Urgent Care Clinic after work on Sunday evening. I thought I was getting better but on Friday morning I woke up and couldn't catch my breath and all day I coughed and my chest hurt so fricken bad. I didn't want to go to the ER so I went to that clinic b/c they are open until 9pm. The dr. listened to my lungs and said what I was expecting her to say, "you have bronchitis," but I didn't realize it was so severe. I am feeling somewhat better today so I am hopeful this mess is finally clearing up.

We've been spending several nights a week with my parents. Mainly because when Alaina starts school in August she won't get to spend as much time with her grandparents and I want her to get that time in. If I could go back and spend more time with mine I surely would. I just hate that on weekends she will have to choose whether she stays with grandma & papa or with granny. Speaking of Granny, she was taken to the ER last night due to having very bad upper right abdominal pain. The last update I had was that they couldn't find out what was wrong and were still running tests.

Pebbles (dog) wants in so I better cut this short.
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 baby Jake
 

Jacob is moving around. He must be awake. It is alittle weird being able to call him by name. I can start to think of him as this whole seperate person even though he is still inside and still depending on me in order to live, I can now say Jacob is kicking me, or something to that matter when I feel his movements.

Women on my birth board are starting to give birth (yes way too early). 5 have given birth, only 1 baby has lived. She was the oldest one born at 24 weeks. And she is still struggling. The others were born between 20-23 weeks and died in utero for various reasons. I worry about that every day. I couldn't imagine giving birth now. He weighs about a lb, hopefully a little over a lb. I just couldn't imagine how difficult it must be to have a premature baby and watch them struggle, hoping and praying they live every minute of the day. Or to go to have an US to find my baby has died and I have to give birth to a dead baby. Gah I am depressing myself to tears!

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 Mother's Day
 

Sunday was no different than any other Sunday for me. I worked, as I always do but even that was no biggie. S didn't get me anything but what hurt the most is that he didn't even call me to say Happy Mother's Day - I was thinking of you, how is your day going - etc. That is what hurt.

Alaina spent the weekend with the grandparents (my mom & dad) and they let her pick me out some flowers. She brought them to the nursing home and that was really sweet. I was grateful to her for making my day actually mean something. She doesn't really understand the holiday yet, but she knows it has something to do with mommies and grandmas and in that she did her best. She drew me a picture of all of us standing in front of our house. Its super cute. I am going to keep it in my scrapbook and show it to her when she gets older.

Even though at work I spent the day reflecting on how I juggle 2 kids, this pregnancy, 2 jobs, the house, the cleaning, the cooking and the errands and I don't get any thanks. For those of us who go unappreciated on that day, it just reminds us of what we already know so well. I watched my coworkers get flowers, candy, cards. Several of the daddy's brought the kids in so they could give their mommies their gifts. Everyone kept asking me where my kids were.

I wasn't going to even approach S and ask him why he just didn't care but that is so unlike me so of course I asked him. His answer was "You aren't MY mom." Hmmmm. I seem to recall Father's Day isn't so far around the corner. I bought him something last year from the girls and of course he forgot that already, this year, he will get nothing.
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 Popcorn Seeds
 

The girls and myself just got finished eating a big buttery bowl full of popcorn. At the bottom there were several popcorn kernals left unpopped. Alaina got a handful of them and said "momma, if you plant these, they will grow." And I of course being a dimwit, unknowing parent said "what will grow," she said "MOMMA if you plant the popcorn seeds, popcorn will grow! duh!"

lol
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